5th Equinox on bubbl.us
~2,5 hours ago it was 10pm, when I went to bed. ~5 minutes ago I gave up waiting for sleep to come and came online. 2 - 3 hours is my limit.
This is nothing new. I’ve known for years that I have great trouble falling asleep unless I’m actually suitably tired. But I will nonetheless need to get up at 4.30am. I will get very little sleep tonight.
Basically all the advice my friends have ever given me?
Go the bed earlier. Just go to bed! That’s it, that’s all I need to do to get enough sleep.
WHAT GOOD DOES IT DO WHEN I DON’T FALL ASLEEP???
Ahhh friends, why are your advice so useless!
I don’t want my job anymore. (stupid early morning shifts) :(
OUO
It’s probably been some two, three years at least since I’ve last been to a movie. I picked a very good one to break the draught.
So I just got back from seeing Avengers in glorious 3D. (why didn’t anyone tell me it can look that good??? okay the glasses didn’t fit perfectly, but close enough!)
I am full of feels.
Everyone needs to post more Loki- err, I mean heroes. Yeah, the… you know, all of them. Whatsits. Good guys?
Yeah them.
Aaron, get on my blog! :)
Aw, I can’t remember if his devart gallery is still alive - and I can’t even go search because I’m at work and the computers here don’t allow access there. Damn. I will update this when I get home, I guess…
LINKED!
go away feels you’re horrible
About a year back I had my phone turned off - for a year. Because I didn’t want to talk to anyone. And it didn’t bother me. On the contrary having to keep it on felt suffocating; like at any moment someone might call me and I’d have to answer.Obviously if I actually managed to recharge it I’d be even more required to answer it. It was horrible and I didn’t want to talk to people so I didn’t. If more of my friends just messaged me that’d be great. Why do so many of them want to talk?
Of course this increased the danger that some of my friends would attempt to contact me by coming around. I’ve been getting slight adrenaline attacks for years now everytime the doorbell rings. Ihateits sound from the bottom of my soul. My first reaction is ‘oh shit! is it someone for me? do I have to go to the door? I’m so not presentable, I don’t want people to see me! I’m busy right now with this.. thing I’m doing! I don’t want to be ambushed like this! GO AWAY!’ All of this of course occurs solely inside my head while I’m trying to be as quiet as possible so anyone at the door will think no one’s at home. It’s dangerous trying to listen to music without headphones on during daytime. Because then they’dknow. If my phone is on, they should message me a warning well in advance. Otherwise, I still have a functioning email - I’m sure one or two of them even know it.
I’m often most satisfied focusing on my own interests which have nothing to do with being around people. Sometimes I even actually communicate with my friends (few though they are, of course. even fewer are close). Though not really of my own volition; I prefer replying. I haven’t felt lonely in years because people don’t matter to me.
Except today at work I was visited by old ghosts of feelings.
It’s registration work. We sit at our computers and fiddle the keyboard all day long. The desks are arranged in circles of about five, six each. Including me there are seven of us new ones focusing on just this registration work. (it’s a call center, others actually have calling duties, we don’t.)
Our places aren’t permanent, sometimes we have to change around. The six others always aim to sit by each other, because of course it’s nice to be with people you get along with, share your frustrations about not understanding how you’re supposed to do some bit of work, or just chat with. Completely normal. And I like sitting by myself; I can concentrate better.
But today I suddenly realised how completely ordinary they are. Just… connecting with each other. And I can’t even try to take part in any conversation because most of the time I can’t even hear what they’re saying.
And I felt miserable because I never wanted to be different.
And because I know it’s not really something I can just change. So this is it.
Me alone. And about 99% of the time happy about it. Except for that one awful percent when my life feels more or less pointless.
This is dedicated to all those lost who flew into space because of their feels.
I just did the Mozart laugh. Yes. This is good.
There are no words
This past week I visited the Wizarding World of Harry Potter in Universal for the first time. It was FANTASTIC. I tried my first butterbeer, rode some dragons, and of coarse, got a bunch of Hufflepuff gear (which was NOT CHEAP btw). I was having the best time a fifteen year old girl could have on a family vacation. When I got back home to find out that Pottermore was finally open to the public, I was absolutely thrilled! I got a pretty awesome username (HawthornOwl10123), and my wand wasn’t that bad (Cedar and Unicorn). Last, but not least, it was time to get sorted into my house. Being that I had just returned from the Wizarding World, I was so happy to have a bunch of Hufflepuff gear. Also, out of all of my friends, I am the most Puff like. Knowing this, I was not in the least bit worried. I confirmed my answers and awaited the results. I expected a lovely background the color of sunshine and a crest with a fuzzy monochrome badger. What i actually saw was crimson and gold… ALL OVER. The worst had actually happened.
… My username is HawthornOwl10123, and I got sorted into the wrong house.
I know
EXACTLY
what this feels like now.
In the ~15 years I’ve been on the internet doing various registrations and things… I HAVE NEVER USED NUMBERS IN MY USERNAME OR POSSIBLE PUBLICLY DISPLAYED NAME.
I AM KIND OF SNOBBY ELITIST ABOUT THAT.
it pains me in my soul now.
to even look at this.
they all have numbers in them.
Goblins is innocent from this crazy accusation.
Why do people blow a lot of things out of proportions!?!?! Goblins Comic has had nothing about rape in its archives! The reason that this ridiculous person has presumed that this ONE page that she saw had ‘rape’ in it was a very bias because she is indeed a fan for Gunnerkrigg Court. Stating that this is not wrong in any way, Ive heard about this accusation and decided to take a look at Goblins and I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA HOW THIS WOMAN SAW RAPE IN IT! It seems that the sick writer is not Mr. Hunt, but indeed the woman that made the accusation. I would appreciate that this rape accusation would be dropped and not be made. It’s sick and wrong to accuse an innocent man!! I’m currently reading Gunnerkrigg Court right now and it seems good but this accusation has just been sent out to all who haven’t even read any of the comics to go automatically against Goblins Comic because of this false pretense of rape in the comic.
Just try to remember that Goblins Comic has a base upon D&D standards, meaning there will be a lot of fighting in the comic itself. So for those who are offended that it has soo much violence, you wouldn’t understand the jokes in this comic if you have never played a version of Dungeons and Dragons then you missed out on a lot of subtle jokes included in this comic.
Oh hey, one voice of reason amongst many idiots! I guess the average tumblr user loves to hate because all of the other posts had plenty of notes. But here’s a piece of truth.
